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[05 Jun 2004|09:10pm] |
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Hmm, I think i'm just gonna stop updateing this thing. No one reads it, but shit happens.
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| Did you see that little man? |
[03 Jun 2004|09:24pm] |
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Q and not U - Sleeping the terror code |
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I took Lori's adderall today in school, and I must say I like adderall a lot. If the therapist makes me go to the docters to get that 'depression medication' then i'm gonna see if they can get me adderall. I'll ask my dad if he'll take me to get 'tested.' He'll do it. Wow, I really hope it works out.
So, I really want to go to Seaside with Alexis for that 1 whole week, but my parents said I can't go on vacation with anyone until I start going with them. So, i'm gonna go with my fucking mom to Pensilvania(sp?) just for the weekend. It's gonna suck, I won't be doing anything. But, then when I ask my mom if I can go, she can't say shit.
I really need to go shopping, but i'm also trying to save money to get pot for the week at Seaside, which is at the end of this month, so i'm gonna start saving now.
Lori's hooking me up with more of her adderall. I'm looking forward to school tomorrow. :)
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| Surprise call. |
[02 Jun 2004|09:41pm] |
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Jared called me today on his sisters cell phone. He's staying with his sister & her boyfriend, 'cause he dosn't want to move to Sayerville, which is cool. We didn't talk for a while, a little more then a half hour at most. It was nice, I havn't talked to him on the phone in a real long while. :)
Today me & Lex smoked on the way to Woodbridge mall. As soon as we got there, we went to AppleBee's and wow was that nuts. We ate so fucking much, oh man I couldn't stand up. And we were constantly laughing, it was pretty funny. I orderded Coconut Shrimp, and damn was it good.
I forgot that today was my dads birthday, thank god my mom reminded me & called me while I was at the mall. So, I picked up a card.
Yeah, not to eventful, but nice.
If I download it, I can fucking watch Tv on my cell phone. Nuts!
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| I think i'll have myself a beer. |
[31 May 2004|09:01pm] |
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Reel Big Fish - Beer! |
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Well, I went to my sisters house this weekend and it didn't turn out like I had hoped. Friday I got there & had to help paint the new apartment. The apartment is nice. 2 bedroom. So, I had to paint & the weekend consisted of moving all the shit back & forth. I hardly ate anything all weekend long & did so much moving around. I lost 5 pounds, which is good 'cause the summer is comming, which I am worring about. I really fucking hope the summer turns out as planned.
I'm talking to Mike Paluzzi and he wants to gain 20 pounds 'cause he's so skinny. He's perfect, I don't see why someone would want to gain weight- I think they are insane. He loses weight if he dosen't eat. He says, "I lost 3 lbs for missing breakfast & lunch, but I had a big ass dinner." Fucking nuts, imagine that.
God, I have so much homework to do & i'm not even going to even try to start it. I can't wait until the 22nd- I fucking hate this school. I'm not gonna go to that gay dance, not a chance. I personally don't care if I never see anyone in that school again, exept for a selected few.
Man, I can not WAIT until the summer. Woo, parties, drugs, wild orgies- I can't even begin to imagine. If this summer turns out to suck i'm going to be so pissed- but it won't 'cause I won't let it.
"And if you're drinking well you know that you're my friend & i'll say, 'I think i'll have myself a beer!'"
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| You'z a ho! |
[26 May 2004|03:59pm] |
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Yesaterday I got a new kick-ass camera phone.
I love it. <3
I'm waiting for my mom to come pick me up for gay therapy. Therapy is really starting to piss me off.
Last night I had a weird dream about ghost cats & me freaking out. It was..pretty dumb now that I think about it.
But my phone kicks so much ass >:D
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| smokin' pot. Again?? No, not those little girls. |
[23 May 2004|06:17pm] |
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I noticed that a lot of my posts have to do with smoking pot.
Well guess what, I smoked even more pot over the weekend. Friday, Saterday & today. Surprised? Of corse not.
Weekend was full of drama 'cause of Lex & all the guys bitching and being jealouse of all the guys she's hanging out with. It happens non-stop, i've noticed.
I'm gonna see if I can chill at my sister house this weekend, if i'm not going to be getting my new sexy cell phone.
Actually went shopping this weekend. Got a shirt and sandels, which I will probably never wear, even though I like them a lot. Other random stuff too, nothing to important. I'm in the mood to drink, I haven't in a while. Maggie owes me 10 bucks. I'm gonna try to get my hands on some acid, even though that may be a little hard.
But not to hard. :)
I got some sexy Curve inceanse, which I would light with candles if it was so got damn fucking hot out!
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[20 May 2004|03:37pm] |
The water is back on, phew.
And that hole wasn't from the water guys, turns out it just caved in or something.
Hmm, I know my house & the mafia are connected, I wonder if that's where they hid the money.
Whatever.
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| holy fucking shit |
[19 May 2004|08:31pm] |
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I can't believe this. My dad forgot to pay the fucking water bill of $63. fucking dollars, he said he had lost the bill. He found it & the due day was April 5. FUCK! what the FUCK am I gonna do without water? I need water. You'd think my dad, a fucking lawyer, would have his act a little bit more put together, yet just 2 days ago he was drunk as fuck from being out drinking & sat in his car for 3 fucking hours. I can't fucking believe this. Ever since the 1st fucking therapist session thing, things have been going to SHIT.
I'm not even that mad, i'm more upset then mad.
Things like this never happened before & this sudden change is a little to much for me.
Especially now, I just got home from smoking with Lex, and my dad has to tell me the news & give my this big speach, screaming sarcasticly. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to live with my sister so bad, I know she'll let me stay.
Jared is moving away next Thursday. That sucks SO BADLY! I don't want him to go at all. I really really don't. I can't exphasize that enough, fuck.
I hate living here & I would love to move out of here, but then again I feel bad for leaving everyone behind, then again I don't- exept for a few people.
I want everyone to leave me the fuck alone & I want everything to be right. This shit is pissing me off and i'm tired of staying so quiet. Everyone sucks- I'm gonna go fucking go to sleep soon or something. I'm tired & pissed & upset & jumbled up right now to hear anything remotely bad.
Sorry for this really gay entry, i'm pretty high and need to vent & i'll probably just delete this entry tomorrow or something. I ate so much, I feel sick & i can't feel my legs. When I walk my legs feel like a badly oiled robot joints or something.
The hole was actually pretty deep. Something was there that the water guys took out.
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[18 May 2004|09:55pm] |
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Yesterday my therapist told me I have involuntary depression.
I never thought I was depressed before, maybe i'm in denial or something?
Her: I think you have involuntary depression. Do you think so?
Me: No.
Her: How do you feel about it now that I told you?
Me: Nothing?
Her: exactly.
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Okay?
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| Niggers. |
[16 May 2004|08:45pm] |
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This weekend was like all the others, exept this weekend was..kinda boring.
Got some awesome weed from Rich ;) Yeah.
That thunderstorm was awesome.
Nothing happened today, exept Alexis' mom wouldn't stop talking about niggers while we were in the car. Yeah, it was funny I guess.
This weekend was beat.
This summer is gonna be beat. I'm gonna have to go to summer school or something.
I need to get my hands on some acid/opium/ecstasy/ anything else. Chris promised Ex, but he said that the pills that are around aren't even MDMA, their coke or MDA, which sucks. Jared won't sell me anything eather. I am sick & tired of everything around here. I need to fucking try something new, meet some new people and go to some real parties :\
Yeah, my posts are pointless.
I left my weed at Lex's >.< damnit!
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| Wow, aren't YOU badass. |
[12 May 2004|09:29pm] |
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Today was nice. Relaxing.
After school I came home, & about a half hour after I get comfy Lex calls & asks if she can come over with Ernest. At first I was a little sketchy, but they came & we decided to go to Lex's house.
It was pouring rain outside. Thunder & lightening, it was nice. We get there & everyone changes their clothes. It was funny. After a little while, Ernest leaves & me and Lex go out in her garage & left the door open so we could watch the rain while she smoked a stoge. It was really relaxing. I love this weather, it makes me feel good inside<3
Then those gay fucking Domino's Pizza shit heads took a million years to bring us our food, & when they finally did they forgot the blue cheese & the hot sauce. We called back & they said that they're having trouble with the computers or some bullshit. This lead to me not eating my bread sticks.
I am so bored.
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| R-E-C-Y-C-L-E recycle! C-O-N-S-E-R-V-E conserve! |
[11 May 2004|05:04pm] |
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R-E-C-Y-C-L-E recycle!
C-O-N-S-E-R-V-E conserve!
Don't you P-O-L-L-U-T-E
pollute the rivers, sky or see
or else you're gonna get,
what you deserve!
Mhmm, that was from Rocko's Modern Life. I do not know why I just rememberd that out of the random. I open my mouth, & that's what came out. I'm bored.
It's 494803980495860456 degrees out, and yet I refuse to wear shorts & I refuse to take off my hoodie. I don't know why I do this, I just do. It sucks.
Yesterday I walked to Lori's, we went to the park. Smoked. Stayed in the park for what felt like 5 hours, talking about who-knows-what. We stayed there, actually, for about 45 minutes. Walked back to Lori's & then my dad picked me up & I had to go to the therapist person. That sucked.
On Mothers day I hung out with a lot of people, & me & Lex smoked. Nothing special happened, but it was a lot of fun. I didn't see my mom all day that day.
"If everybody smoked a blunt, relieve the mind, the world could be a better place.
If everybody took a break and we all just got wasted"
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| Mary-Kate anorexic? |
[08 May 2004|10:39pm] |
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Today went forever.
Chilled with Mike Paluzzi & smoked with him.
Met up with Ernest & took a cab to the mall. I don't remember much. We wound up going to the Menlo Park Diner at around 5:30 & ordered chocolate chip pancakes & played Bob Marley on the little music box thing. It was fun.
Got some new shoes. Not much happened. Still got some shit left. Yeah.
My mom is talkin' about how a guy that is a cannibal (Mom:"A guy that was like the guy in Hannibal") is getting out of jail & is living in Staten Island(Mom:"Which is a half hour away from here."). And she's nervouse or some shit. Okay?
While I was in the mall today I was in CVS for some reason reading a magazine & it showed pictures of Mary-Kates back & how you can see all her ribs & "How much healthier Ashley looks." They said Mary-Kate was anorexic. I don't remember much from the article, but it was cool. Yeah.
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| Stoned like hell. |
[08 May 2004|02:37am] |
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Chris gave us Special K, so me & Lex did some earlier, & it didn't really work. I got pissed as fucking hell so we got some weed & we just smoked it. I can't believe the K didn't work man, i'm really dissapointed. Gay Rob & John wont get us a fucking sub. Man, i'm hungry as hell. I wanted a 6 inch ham & cheese, mayo, oil & vinagar, lettuce, & olives. I think i'm missing something, but oh well, I don't know.
This girl Allison is gettin' high the first time. hell yeah nigga! Well, i'm hungry I guess i'll go. Jareds mad at me about the K. Damn man. He's drunk?
MUNCHIES!!
Noo!! Mucnhies are BAD!
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Rob: You want a 9 inch shlong?
Me: No, a 6 inch sub!
Me: Gotta spray 'da curtains with Fabreeze<3
Me: *starts spraying curtains*
Lex: *looks at bottle* That's 409!
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| What happened to you, Jesus? You used to be cool. |
[05 May 2004|07:52pm] |
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I want water bad.
But today, I used my last water bottle to make a bong so me & Lori could smoke & I refuse to drink out of the tap water. Well, this sucks ass.
I ate so much today, and actaully have been eating a lot the past couple days. Ugh, I feel gross. I want to take a shower, but i'm to lazy.
I'm gonna call my dad to get me a sub. I'm still so hungry.
This is pointless, i'm just really really bored.
I heard thunder a little while ago, & I don't see any fucking rain. I wish there would be a storm.
Fuck.
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[04 May 2004|07:27pm] |
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I can name a million reasons how I can tell Jareds mad at me.
Actually, I lied. I can only name about 6 or 7. Still, what the fuck!? One day he just starts to act diffrent. I don't know whats up with him, but if it's anything, it's some bullshit people are talking. What the fuck!? Why do people have to be so fucking gay about everything. Nothing even happened where people could start rumers!
And if he never listened to them before, why did he start now???
Actually, I don't know what i'm talking about. I have no idea what is up with him & i'm to much of a pussy to ask him. I just can't bring myself to it, yet at the same time I want to know so badly. Ugh, fuck! I don't know what to do. :\
If he's on later tonight, i'll IM him. I'll make sure I do. >:\
::EDIT::
Oh uh, nevermind. :)
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| Your vacuume ate my pants. There was nothing I could do. |
[02 May 2004|04:32pm] |
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Real quick recap.
Yeah uh, didn't go to school Friday so at like 12 me & Cyn walked to Menlo & long story short Cyn stole from Macy's and on the way out an under cover cop brought us back into the "empolee's only"(sp?) place. Back there they have cameras every where. They must have had 200 tv's showing every isle of that damn store.
Anyway- they didn't press charges or that shit. The cops & shit were cool. They just took down our info, called our parents & drove us home. I'm grounded- again. Nothing new.
I finally got my internet to work. Thank god.
Damn, this weekend sucked. Next Friday I might be getting a new phone.
Haha, Cyn was wearing a sublime hat with a pot leaf on the front & one of the cops said, "Oh you smoke pot? Yeah, there's a lot of drugs going around in front of the movie thearters."
They told us if we ever wanted to steal anything just to go to Woodbridge mall.
Hah, they also mentioned Jared. That was funny.
Anyway- i'm bored as shit and I guess i'll post a picture of my backyard with those ghostly creepy flouting balls.
Yeah. Yeah I know you love my sexy retarded tree. Hell yeah you do, don't lie.
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| One year today. |
[27 Apr 2004|05:28pm] |
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Well, today is mine, Tape, & Lex's one year aniversary(sp?) of when we got arrested. We were all supposed to chill but Alexis is sick & i'm a lazy bitch. Damn.
Yesterday after I went to my therapist my mom took me to get my industrial done, but since my ear is fucked up & I don't have enough cartiledge for it, I settled with this:
Mmhmm, See it? It's on the upper part of my ear. It's a hoop. I don't know what it's called. Next week I might get a vertical industrial in my other ear or my tragus. Depends.
Anyway, last night I had a crazy dream. I hardly remember any of it, but here is what I do remember:
I was hanging out with Lori, & we had a shitload of drugs. I mean, every single drug you sould think of, & we were popping pills & smokin' joints & doin' all this other shit like crazy. Eventually people came over but I don't remember that part. Anyway, Lori had a needle & she shot herself up in the arm but left a little bit. She goes, "Here, you want any? It's liquid Ecstasy. Try it." So, I took the needle & shoved it in my arm. As soon as I pull it out I see a swarm of mixed colors all around me & someones face, but after 5 seconds it dissapears. Then Lex comes & I tell her about it & she got pissed that I left her out. I don't remember the rest, but it was still a cool dream. Just thinking about it makes me want to go out & smoke some weed. But then again, what dosen't?
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| "I'm dreaminnnn about bein' a bluunnt!" |
[22 Apr 2004|05:28pm] |
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Yesterday was pretty awesome.
After school I went to Cynthia's house, just to chill. Stayed there for a bit. Chuck & Dennis are living there now, so they were there & at around 5 Cyn mom & Butch went out to get us some alcohol. They came back with Green Apple Shmirnoff twist vodka. A nice big, sexy bottle. Chuck & Dennis drank a lot and were piss drunk even before we left to go to our schools gay talent show thing at 7:00 p.m.
On the way we picked up Walter! And we went to the bleachers & drank & smoked out of Cyn's water bong thing that she brought. We smoked the leftovers of 420.
Chuck was throwing up all over the place & was crying 'cause he was thinking about when his mom died. Dennis Sarah & Mike stayed with him while we went inside the show.
Sat with Gleb, Walter & John Clouter. Found out John Clouter smokes! Hah, fucking awesome & and Matt Hart too! Found Cyn & she came to sit with us & i was twitching like crazy. Walter kept walking over the seats & bought me a snickers bar. It was exiting :D
We tried to go outside & Mrs. Sweeney was fucking talking to us, I just left & walked back in 'cause we weren't allowed out. The talent show was nuts!
After that we went outside & met Mrs. Sweeneys husband, & he's pretty cool.
Went back to the bleachers & Chuck & everyone were still there. So was Fat Mike, Tape, Jenn- and yeah. Slept over Cynthia's house & made cupcakes & shit.
Ate so much, ugh. But it was definitaly fun.
I'm seriously becoming a pot head, & I don't even care anymore.
Damnit fuck fuck shit! I missed the new South Park yesternight! Shit, they better play it again tonight.
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